I am an avid reader. I work at Borders Books.
I have "book lust". A dangerous thing to have while
working at a bookstore.
I have read many many books.
My absolute favorite is the "Outlander" series by
Diana Gabaldon. The series is loved by thousands.
We have repeatedly asked for a Miniseries.
People on YouTube have made hundreds of mini
movies. The links below are some of my favorites.
They are photos of Scotland and the Standing Stones
along with the people we wish would be the actors in
the Miniseries. Most of us agree Gerard Butler is
Jamie. Most libraries carry the series. It is on cd
by Recorded Books and Read by Davina Porter with
her perfect scottish accent. The stories come to life
when she reads them. I actually feel I "know" Jamie
and Claire. I have read and listened to them over and
over. Please take a look at the videos.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Mid Life
Here it is 3 am. Again I can't sleep.
It is strange to reach a point in life,
when I need more sleep and I cannot sleep at all.
I just don't understand how I can be so tired and not sleep.
It is almost as though my body senses I'm beyond the midpoint
in my life and every minute becomes more precious.
I get up and fix a cup of decaf coffee.
I switched to decaf awhile ago and I never cared for colas.
I drink two cups in the morning, max, and still can't sleep. Oh well,
more time to express my creativity, right?
On to another day.
It seems that no matter how I plan things
there is never enough time in the day to do everything.
I used to be able to charge into projects and finish in no time.
Now it takes days to find the energy and time.
I always assumed(and you know what that word means) that as I got older
things would get easier and I would have more time for me and the things
I wanted to do and create. I don't know what ever gave me that idea?
I am quickly approaching retirement age and yet,
I see no end to the everyday
demands of work, children, home and health.
Little things constantly pop up and delay whatever thing I might be trying
to work on or finish.
No one seems to notice that I am having trouble keeping
up with everything. It is such a struggle. I keep going, day after day.
I wonder, will I have some time to myself before the struggle ends?
Will I get to travel to the places I dream about?
Life is short. Will I see any of my dreams come true?
Is it selfish to have dreams?
I am beginning to think TV is a bad thing.
I don't get to watch much and when I do,
it is usually factual or do it yourself learning.
I watch the decorating channels.
The big, fancy homes with lots of room and plenty of space.
I wish I had more space.
I wish I had some new appliances.
I wish I had the money and help to fix up my home.
I see all the new cars. I am just happy if my car runs and
does not break down or cost more money. I'll never have a new car.
I try to remind myself that all those things are just material.
Truthfully, I would live in a nice little two room wood shed
in my older daughter's back yard if that was a possibility.
I would like to enjoy her companionship every day.
We would walk outside in our night gowns to her picnic table
and have our morning Coffee together
and chat about all our everyday problems and plans.
Watch the sun slowly rise.
Listen to the birds and watch the deer. Just enjoy the Quiet.
I would get to see my three grandchildren every day.
I miss them.
So very much.
Tennessee seems a million miles from Orlando.
I guess I better go lay down and get some rest if I can.
My youngest daughter will be up and bouncing around at 7.
She always keeps me very busy.
Today is her Grandma's birthday so I guess we'll go party with her.
Get Well Dad. Bless you.
Get Well Dale. Bless you.
Get Well wishes to my dear daughter, Michelle. Bless you.
Bless and Love you all.
